Dear Mr or Mrs who doesn't care may you give me private lessons teaching me how to care less or don't care at all, I want to tell you that I do my best and try hard but with no use. I success to care less for a couple of days, I don't keep worrying and wondering how others are doing and I don't make these kinds of ridiculous calls saying I wanted to make sure that you're o.k. since you didn't seem well yesterday. But very soon I go back to normal when I see a vague status or hear an annoying news. I focus in meditation and yoga on how to let go and let myself of the hook and it works for a couple of hours after the class then unfortunately I go back to that pathetic status. I start to convince myself that nobody cares, it is better to believe so than facing the fact that nobody cares about me and don't get me wrong care isn't between finances and husbands it is between family, friends, and colleagues. It is about that you make difference and while your absence you're missed. It is about how they wonder how you're doing not because they have to but because they want to and feel so. It is about not taking you for granted. It is about asking you hey what's up and then waiting for the answer. It is about remembering details and about being on the top of their priorities list as they are on the top of yours.
"Actions speak louder than words" It is an old saying resuming what I want to say, they can keep saying that it is only in your head and that they care but you see or feel nothing of that.
No lying sometimes that quote works: "treat people the way you want to be treated". It works to give you hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel but probably you find out that it is nothing but a train light chasing you.
You may tell me you should talk to people you think they care but get busy in life but I'll tell you that there are things you can’t ask for. And you may also tell me you are getting too much involved with others and maybe they find it a kind of intrusion that's why they don't do what you're doing since they find it annoying. Let me tell you I think about that the whole time, you might be right and I try to be less intrusive and mind my own business more bas a2olak eh ana stuck ta7n.
I'll end with some questions is it me or them? Am I meeting wrong persons, but they can't be all wrong it must be me somehow. Am I little paranoid? Am I getting involved too much? Is knowing that they deeply inside care enough? I have no idea
